Thursday, April 7th, 2005
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3:32 pm
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Who to trust? My best friend or the pleas of a desperate guy?
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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
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11:30 pm
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Well Neil was online for like 2 miuntes. It was in between classes. He has afternoon classes... which means we most likely won't be seeing him alot. But thats ok. He's doing better, yay for betterness!
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Sunday, March 6th, 2005
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8:30 pm
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Efore thius one is yet another post thats provate from all..only because it's my thoughts and I don't feel like making any new shit or problems or arguments... so it'll remain private until some time passed or until someone begs to see it.
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Friday, March 4th, 2005
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8:07 pm
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I don't think anyone reads it hear. So I never bother straiign my thoughts, never think outside then my own feelings. SO I don't post here for pity. I don't post here ot hurt you. I just post because those are my thoughts at the time. In that post I put that it's gonna be dropped after that post also. That means..after I his update, it was dropped and out of mind.
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1:42 am
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You aren't ugly!!!!
Ok,... people who know Neil from irl. Who've seen him irl. Is he ugly? I don't think so. He seems to think so. Respond please please saying truthfullness of if he's ugly or not. So he can see. That he isn't Thank you.
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12:31 am
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There is a post that none can see anymore on here..before this post..about jumbled thoughts and crap. If you wish to see of know what was on it.. then ask and I'll consider giving you a summary.
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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
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8:22 am - the only one...
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It bothers me, even today that I was the only one rooting for him...when I loved him the most. Whenever they loved him the most, they didn't want himt o go on with his dreams at all... they wanted to change his dreams to go along with their own... that was selfish. I was the only one then who pushed him, told him to keep going. And he knows that too.
I was bothered a bit... that now suddenly all of them are like "Go for our dreams" When it's now they aren't in his life as much anymore...but atleast they're finally supporting him.
It also bothered me that he was the one to see and beleive that I was pushing him towards his goals..that I was ht eonly one rooting for him. I know for a fact I can say I was the only one wishing for his goals to come true then... and even now, I know I'm hte only one rooting because I care about him that much. They rroting.. because he's not in their life anymore... thats kind of sad.
Justina was mad because I said I was th eonly one. But truthfully I was. She only gave him things ot study Japanese before he had the dream of going there to be a teacher. And then after that time, they drifted apart and she was in her own world...so seriously, I know I was the only one rooting for his dreams then. Alot of people want to seem like they care about him the most tho... they go and say that others don't want him to accomplice it and they were the only ones... they just came into his life just recently... those people. And they all want him to fail because they want him themselves... it's all stupid. They're all stupid. I want him to suceed and make sure thats what he wants to do.. because I Know he can do it, I know if he wanted to he can suceed with it. And it seems like even now..I still am the only one like that.
Michelle and KAtie D. You guys are awesome. Because I know for a fact you guys are rooting for him truly. ^.^ You guys are like that.. you know? hehe. Makes me wish I was your age so I could hang out with you guys more. Oh well..I'm glad you guys are around.
And yeah..this post is pointless really..I was just thinking..been thinking... and yeah. X.x it led to this. And also I read something last night that had ot do with that. Someone was like "his friends and family doesn't want him suceed. I do though. He's an exchange student..so only two years. If it doesn't happen like that then I secretly wish he won't suceed just so I can be selfish and be able to have him" >< It wasn't really those words. But thats what I got from it. hehe. oh well. Jaa mata ne. KaYu out.
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Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
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1:06 pm - tired of this...
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people are stupid. Thats all I'm saying.
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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
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11:14 pm
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As the image above says, friend's only. Comment here if you wish to be added.
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11:01 pm
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Can you read these posts and stuff with the blue on black/white?
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